Well, as gaining more dance experience , I know who are the kind of leader I want to dance with and who are not. I just want to have fun, enjoy the connection between two people and music in the milonga. I don't need fancy steps to show off how well I can follow or how good the leader can be... Everyone has his own path to learn tango.
Therefore, I think the magic is officially gone. There was one time that I was amazed by your new steps since I never did those steps before and I didn't know that someday I could do that. However, I gain my experience. i know that once I maintain my balance I can do thousands of complicated steps and still look good. it's easy to happen as long as there is a good lead. Now all I want is to feel the connection from you, to look for the vibe we used to have that night.
But unfurntunely they are all gone. Don't know why, but they're just gone. And I finally start not to fall for you. you are just another regular dancer on the floor. Everything will be back to normal and I will be fine just like before.
To maintain balance To collect every step The intorduction to great arts Those good exotic food Dance whereever you are A real nice music collection The "cat milonga"-- meow, meow, meow All these beautiful memories
and,
my favorite quote-- "You have to do what you need to do"
Finally I started to realize that I am not the one for him.
Magic disappeared after since. After that dance, we both knew that something was missing there. Nothing happened. We couldn't even know that magic was here once.
I was left there wondering... Is it just me dreaming of love? Those things that I've been looking for so long...The longing for warm embrace make me dizzy and fall for someone who doesn't even exist.
Seriously, I don't think my man really exists. Sorry, guys.
I used to so adore my tango love, I wanted to see him everyday. So I search everywhere just to see him again.
The way he looked at me makes me feel I am the only one in his world, boy, I felt myself so important. My tango love danced with me again and again till the music stoped. He let go my hand and ran back to the DJ station, played another set of songs, then came back to me, said, "shall we?" I couldn't see anything, anyone but him, seriously.
But you know, everything changes. Things change and end. Life changes, and so does love.
就算沒有音樂，沒有任何舞步，只要是兩個人close embrace，我們便能即時分辨出，這是阿根廷探戈。 好像很多人認為這是接吻的原型，close embrace也是擁抱的原型吧。 如此的親密喚起最直接的渴望，如嬰兒渴望母親的懷抱，情人渴望繞著情人的臂彎或腰肢，close embrace叫人沉迷。擁抱的時侯，應該好像在對方耳邊輕唱，You are my sunshine, you are my sunshine, you make me happy。人生那麼繁瑣和艱苦，可以的話，都應該簡單得不得了，剩下擁抱，剩下陽光下的擁抱，剩下沒有別人，剩下我們盪漾。
--- close embrace也是讓我如此沈迷於探戈中的一部份原因吧。渴望擁抱，渴望親密的一瞬間，尤其在這漸漸習慣的陌生國度。環境與語言的不熟悉感已經漸漸減少，夜半驚醒自問身在何處的漂泊感也漸漸遠去，如果關起心門，我甚至快要忘記我離我親愛的朋友家人已經這麼遠這麼久。然而，當我想要分享我的快樂、我的憂傷的時候，我拿起手機，想起台灣的好朋友正在沈睡，美國的好朋友們分散在各地奮鬥，我又默默的放下手機。
